I just want to sleep. I want to sleep until everything bad and stressful is over. 

I don't do as much sport as I used to. I eat more than I used to. I sleep less than I used to. 

Ana is turning Mia, you know. I don't want that.. I love my teeth, haha. Why should I become thin without teeth, when I could become thin WITH teeth? I love the feeling of empty stomach... But sometimes I love the taste of food even more. I love the taste, but I hate the feeling of full stomach, you know what I mean?

I used to have these days when I drank diet coke and smoked all day. Everybody were my friends, sun was shining all day and I enjoyed my life. 

I have to stop feeling sad, and do whatever I can, to make myself happy. This is what I used to do! 

Diet coke, cigarettes and leather jacket, here I come!

Wednesday

Thank you so much for your comments.

Btw, I think no one of my followers speak my native language...

I visited my friend today, and the doctors said that she is getting better and better. She looks so peaceful and beautiful. It's all so sad. But you can't imagine my happiness, when the doctors told me that they really think that she will be fine. I wish I cold give her strength...

My examinations and graduating are coming. Like there isn't enough stress in my life.

Soon this all will be over. Can't wait.

I want to live my (most of the time) normal life again.

New start... no start.... what ever

You probably think why I haven't wrote for so long time.

My life has been very...

Sad?

One of my best friends got into a car accident. She ...is still in coma.

So. That's why I haven't wrote for few weeks. I have cried my eyes out.

I don't want to talk about this. I can't express myself in English so well also. 

The accident happened on 7th. 

The other thing is that my parents got divorced. Why and why now? At least they're ... always there for me. 

I love you.

Love yourself. 

We are beautiful.

bread&party, 70.5

Scoooooooool is killing me. 

About seven weeks more. 

Every morning I'm so tired, I should sleep more. Not sleeping enough=no energy=(eating too much)=slow metabolism=staying fat. Today wasn't as good as yesterday. I ate about five slices of bread (not that white thing you call bread), three cups of coffee, two cookies and super good rice-kiwi-dessert. I just... got rid of the last one. 

One good thing more about yesterday - I went to aerobics, I was so proud of myself :)

I think I'm going to make some tea for my tummy, I don't feel well. 

I added one thing into my list: I'll go out with a guy, when I'm 65 kg. For me it's so hard to lose weight. Why I can't be like those girls who can eat whatever they want and still stay skinny? 

PARTY thinspo today! Who doesn't love parties?!

Hey. 

School was soooo boring today. So I read a book. A book about rich, high-class, beautiful young people. (You have heard this so many times... I want to be like them). Anyway, when I was sitting in my maths class, stomach grumbling, drinking my diet cola, and reading, I felt like I belong there. In that book. I belong in USA's high school. It wold be totally me - shopping every weekend, having lunch in school with my friends, going to parties and stuff... But this is real life. I'm not rich. I live in Europe. We don't even have cheerleaders, haha. 

Okay, I love Europe, but USA is so... I don't know. Europe is the 'old world'. I love the fashion and the food here, and it's my home, but goosh.., how to explain what I feel... :/

Anyway, today's been good, I've eaten... um, I had about five mouthfuls of yogurt and two cups of coffee. So. Yeah. That's good.

Hope you are having a good day.

Low...

Hey girls.

Not so good today. 

I go like: up and down very up and super down. 

Today I hate myself. I think I will fast next week, and I also think that I won't fail. 

Short post today...

Today's thinspiration are of popular/beautiful/skinny girls. Everybody knows them - they are always pretty and they get all the boys. Sometimes you just hate them.. or get jealous. I've never been like this, but I would like to know what it feels like (to be popular and stuff).

The first picture (girl in yellow top) was my first thinspiration picture ever. 

70.1

Hello my skinnysweetcute girls!

Today I feel great, I don't even know why.

In the morning I went to market and bought some really good green and healthy stuff.

I had thousand cups of coffee, because I didn't sleep very much.

Oh, I haven't mentioned one thing!!!!!! I got into the best school in my town!!!! It's on the second place in our country!!!! It's like... imagine that you get in to the best school... Best feeling ever. Oh... But I have to study A LOT. There is three super hard and stressful years coming. But still. The best school!!

Some black&white thinspo!