One day... 71.3

I just ate half of healthy breakfast. In our country we usually eat porridge for breakfast. I like when there is very little porridge and lots of yogurt, fruits and jam on it. (I have to cut the last one out). Anyway I ate kiwis and yogurt and three bites of porridge and flushed rest down toilet. I have done this so many times that I almost feel sorry for my mum. But I think this is better than eat and purge. (sorry Mia-s). 

I always imagine when I'm thin then I wear this white sleeveless white shirt and leggings. Maybe wet-look leggings. That kind of outfit would show my skinny body.. One girl from my school (she's stupid like a sheep but so damn pretty and skinny) often wears wet-look leggings and leather jacket and she looks so skinny and so beautiful... Like really.. She does something with modeling also. 

Anyway, the thinspo.. 

Can anyone tell me how do you call this sleeveless white blouse?!

So yesterday I wished I would be at least 70.9 this morning. 

And I was! 

..........celebrated it with binge

if I'm not going to be 70.something tomorrow morning then I will die. 

Lemontree

So I'm sitting here in the boring room, 

it's just another rainy Sunday afternoon...

It's Wednesday really. And our living room isn't boring. I'm drinking coffee, reading Garfields comics and taking my everyday tour in thinspo blogs. 

Yesterday was a good day. I drank lots of tea (I bought very special tea from Tea&Coffee shop... it tastes like chocolate truffle, and has only about 2 cal) and CocaCola zero <-- my favorite. I have been drinking it for so long time so my mother doesn't suspect anything.

And this morning I was ... 70.9 

I was like. Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat I last weighted 70 two years ago!

Too good to be true. 

So I stepped again on scale and I was 71.2

And again. Still 71.2.

And Tomorrow I want to be at least 70.9. 
Scale just can't play with me like that!
So today I will also drink tea and CCzero and in afternoon I will go to Pilates. 

Some flat stomach inspiration...

Summer is coming!

Some bikini/summer thinspirations... 

The most perfect body ever!

No, wait, she has the most perfect body!!

thin girls have more fun

I'm soooo tired of being fat.

Skinny girls get all the boys!

Rose

I came from school and I was starving. Now I'm not. Eating helps. And it helps so much that I will hate myself. 

I started my personal ana diary (real, paper diary). 

This morning I was 71.4. I want to be at least 67 for the 29th (then I go back to school).  

My family likes to celebrate everything, so today I think we will celebrate that school holidays will start, tomorrow we celebrate winter end... And a part of celebrating is eating all good bad stuff like cakes, chocolate, etc.

Remember... nothing tastes as good as thin feels


Rose

Oh God

Life hates me.

Food hates me. 

I hate me.

Fat loves me. 

I was doing pretty goo, day before yesterday I weighted 71.6 kg. Only 600 g to 71.0. Haha, guess what happened?! Yes! I ate everything what I saw! Kill me :) ! And then... I ate more! Yay! Somebody please take me to fucking never discovered island and leave me there.

F.u.c.k. Let's start again!

I've started again. I mean.. I've never stopped, but I'm feeling stronger. 

I work out for about two hours a day.

I started smoking again (gosh I love how it makes my scale numbers low). I know it's unhealthy, but without it I'm weak........ 

I eat 3-4 times a day. 8 in the morning, 11, 14 and (if I can't avoid it) at 17 o'clock. 

Today I'm going to skiing and after that to pilates.

This morning I was 72.5 kg... Can't wait to weight myself next morning!

Oh.. Currently I'm drinking coffee... Maybe some thinspiration? 

Remember... nothing tastes as good as thin feels


Rose

The longer I wait to do the right thing, the longer it takes to reach my goal.

I have to practice saying: "No thank you, I'm not hungry."

 I found this saying somewhere: Whenever you get hungry, think of all the people who made fun of you when you were FAT - Especially any who don't WANT you to look good! For me it's the best inspiration!

Remember... nothing tastes as good as thin feels


Rose

Legs

Remember... nothing tastes as good as thin feels


Rose