68,9!

Hi,

last few days has been boring... Only things I do: sleep, watch movies and drink tea. (oh my god, I feel like I can't speak English at all :D) 

Well, anyway, thanks to my "new lifestyle" I now weight 68.9 ! I last weighted this much like... three years ago. So I'm quite happy! But, I have to keep it down. There is no point, when I lose weight and gain it back (like I always do).

Which one you prefer: real girls thinspo, or models thinspo?
 

I like models thinspos, but not as much as real-life ones. Is is because I think I'll never be like them? I don't know.

Real girl from somewhere - if she can do it, then I can do it. Models - they just are skinny, no matter what. 

What do you think?

About my friend(I'll name her Faith) : I promised to myself, that I won't write about her anymore, but I have to share it. They will try to get her out of it. They said, that they'd had these kind of cases before, and they think that they will be successful. (I heard it from Faith's mother).

Hi girls.

I'm still alive. 

I fasted for two days, and after that I ate for two days. Nonstop. I haven't got much to say... 

I've missed this blog and my dear followers, but when I've gained weight, even if I feel full or I've eaten something, I feel like I don't deserve to be here. 

Past these days I've been between 69.3...71.5 kg. When I'm over 70 I feel so sad and fat. I eat things I don't even like! I kind of forget how good it feels to lose weight. 

I HATE WEEKENDS ! !

Oh... I will never leave this blog or you guys... I try to write every day (it's good for my English too (: ).

I will never forget how good thin feels. 

Btw, I saw a pair of AMAZING white ripped jeans... They were sooooo pretty, but there was only size XXS, XS and S. Should I buy one pair for inspiration?

Different thinspo this time...

One day we can have a candy like this... Inspirational, isn't it :D?

what 69.6?

Hi lovelies!

Remember that awful day I had... Well as you said, I did better on the next day. I had like 150 cals. I was super tired and went to sleep like at 19 o'clock (haha, I never know when it's a.m or p.m, we use 24-hour clock).

So after 10 hours sleeping I was 69.6. I couldn't believe it at all. On the scale. Off the scale. On the scale. Still 69.6. I was like... Umm.. okay, what just happened (I haven't been under 70 for two years!!!). Then I was happy all day and managed to drink only tea & diet cola (I absolutely LOVE it, what's wrong with me). And then came evening... And then came pizza... And then I ate like pizza-pig. But I still stayed under 500 cal I hope. 

And yesterday... oh. It's so easy to not eat at school. But when I reach home, then I'll become a monster. So I had a super delicious pie what I made (but it was with champignones so I hope there wasn't very much calories). And the good thing was I went to jogging after this. 

I feel so powerful, when I haven't eat. You know that feeling - you control everything. I love it. 

So why I ruin it all the time?

Oh, and do you know that feeling too, when you have fasted, and then you eat, and then your stomach will hurt so much? I kind of like it, it's like a punishment for eating. 

 One question: How many calories are in mushrooms? I can't find it anywhere. And how many calories are in this grass what grows under water? (I hate my English right now :D, but I hope you understand what I mean).

Coffee

Just came from school. I've eaten about 300 cals today, I hope that I won't eat more.

Good news, I'm finally 70.0!!!

I have to keep it that way and lose more.

You girls keep me going: Raaawr., ccoutlon, xoktqtx3, Kajsa Mooore, Sun-Lit~, Anastasia, Sphinx's sister, If Life Gives You Lemons, Don't Eat Them, sarah, Bl33ding Truth, becky, Ninah and Pretty Thin, thank you!

My next goal is 65 kg. I lose weight so slowly... I've got a list in my phone where are my 'treats' for losing weight. 

There are: 

70-special hair conditioner

69-mascara

68-tank top

67-leggings

66-book

65-bikinis

These are the only things I buy. And I have to be under that weight, like when I'm 69.9 kg then I may buy conditioner. When I reach my final goal, 60 kg, then I'll buy lots of new clothes. 

Have you done this kind of lists? Do they work for you?

I have so much homework to do but I'd rather go out, sleep or watch tv... 

What do you think of laxatives? I've tried them once, and I don't recommend them to anyone. 

And... Does the diet pills really work?

Stay strong ladies! (specially the MNF girls)

Vintage/black&white thinspo, I loooove the last one, Sandra from "Grease".

hmm

Hellohello!

Yesterday was amazing! 

I went to a cafe where were like thousand cakes and muffins and only thing I took was a coffee with sugar substitute! And later I went to my friend's home, her father had made a cake what looked delicccciioousss... and I didn't take a piece of it! 

Okay, one time when I got super tired I ate a piece of pickled cucumber what was about 5 cals. 

Whole day I drank Cocacola zero and tea and that one cup of coffee. 

This morning I was 70.2 kg.(gggrrhh it is so large number). Still not 70.0. 

But today:  small piece of pound cake for breakfast - 70 cals

one pickled cucumber - 5 cals

one piece of dark chocolate - 20 cals

seven pieces of dried pineapple - 100 cals (I really have to stop eating these)

two cups of coffee (with milk) - 50 cals

and tea. 

245 cals. Not bad.

Stay strong!

I love you girls!!!

Ripped jeans thinspo today! I'm in love with the second picture. 

EDIT: Gosh, my family just bring McDonald's food... I'm chewing gum and dieing. I won't eat it. I know I won't. So I came here and changed blog's layout, how do you like it? I think it's cute, but maybe are these strawberries little bit annoying. What do you think?

Yesterday I ate like a cow. 

I tried to make this up, I forced myself to go to gym, and later I went to sauna. 

And this morning I was 70.3!! 

OMG... it's only one kilo to 69. 

BUT... It's Easter time.. and my mum made this special Easter food, which contains curd, whipped cream, sugar and dried fruit. So. not very YAY.

Also, my father bring Cadbury's chocolates from England... You can't get them from here. So last night it went to sleep, thinking, that when I wake up and I'm under 70.6 then I may eat those candies. And I was 70.3........................... I ate 6. 6. Six! Chocolates. One was with liquid caramel.. and one was with egg liqueur...

I'm sad because my breakfast was like 600-700 cal. 

But today is a holiday (Good Friday) and I'm going to countryside. So rest of the day I'm gonna only drink diet cola. 

And I discovered amazing thing - sugar substitute (0,02 cal) ! I can finally drink my favorite - sweet black tea with milk. 

I also have my favorite milk - contains 30 cal. (0,05% fat)

And tea anyway don't have calories. 

And yesterday I drank energy drink, which was only 2 cal. And it helped. I mean, I wasn't too tired to go to gym (usually I am). 

EDIT: Yesterday, when my dad arrived, and we hugged, then he asked me: "You are much smaller, have you lost weight?" (inside I was so happy that I wanted to cry)

What do you think about sugar substitutes?

Or energy drinks? 

So yesterday I wished I would be at least 70.9 this morning. 

And I was! 

..........celebrated it with binge

if I'm not going to be 70.something tomorrow morning then I will die. 

Lemontree

So I'm sitting here in the boring room, 

it's just another rainy Sunday afternoon...

It's Wednesday really. And our living room isn't boring. I'm drinking coffee, reading Garfields comics and taking my everyday tour in thinspo blogs. 

Yesterday was a good day. I drank lots of tea (I bought very special tea from Tea&Coffee shop... it tastes like chocolate truffle, and has only about 2 cal) and CocaCola zero <-- my favorite. I have been drinking it for so long time so my mother doesn't suspect anything.

And this morning I was ... 70.9 

I was like. Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat I last weighted 70 two years ago!

Too good to be true. 

So I stepped again on scale and I was 71.2

And again. Still 71.2.

And Tomorrow I want to be at least 70.9. 
Scale just can't play with me like that!
So today I will also drink tea and CCzero and in afternoon I will go to Pilates. 

Some flat stomach inspiration...

I came from school and I was starving. Now I'm not. Eating helps. And it helps so much that I will hate myself. 

I started my personal ana diary (real, paper diary). 

This morning I was 71.4. I want to be at least 67 for the 29th (then I go back to school).  

My family likes to celebrate everything, so today I think we will celebrate that school holidays will start, tomorrow we celebrate winter end... And a part of celebrating is eating all good bad stuff like cakes, chocolate, etc.

Remember... nothing tastes as good as thin feels


Rose

I've started again. I mean.. I've never stopped, but I'm feeling stronger. 

I work out for about two hours a day.

I started smoking again (gosh I love how it makes my scale numbers low). I know it's unhealthy, but without it I'm weak........ 

I eat 3-4 times a day. 8 in the morning, 11, 14 and (if I can't avoid it) at 17 o'clock. 

Today I'm going to skiing and after that to pilates.

This morning I was 72.5 kg... Can't wait to weight myself next morning!

Oh.. Currently I'm drinking coffee... Maybe some thinspiration? 

Remember... nothing tastes as good as thin feels


Rose

Day 1

Today I feel hopeful. I have to do something different this time. 

I graduate this spring and in autumn I will go to a new school. There I will turn a new page in my life. But I can't do it, if I have old body. I need a new one! Skinnier, prettier, perfect body.

I weight 74.1 kg. This. is. a. HUGE. number. I have to get ride of it!

Today I ate:  
half crepe with cucumber, sour-cream and green onion 50 cal
black bread with turkey ham 80 cal
salad of cucumber and lettuce  15 cal
apple tea 2 cal
super small serving of plain salmon 100 cal
earl grey tea with milk 7 cal
Total:  ~250 cal
 

Remember... nothing tastes as good as thin feels


Rose