Today I went shopping for the first time over month. It's a long time for me without shopping. I was walking on the streets, alone, looking all the skinny girls. Usually I'm confident, doing my own business, having my goals and stuff.
I bought some really nice clothes for myself. In the changing room I realized that... I'm not an ugly girl. My beauty is just under all this fat. I can't shine with this body, I need a new one. I wouldn't change anything in myself (except my too big nose, bad skin, yellow teeth, huge shoe size... ANYWAYS...) but my fat body. And this is the thing that I CAN change myself. Without all that fat what is covering me I would be pretty. Even for myself. I would be happy with myself. I know that. I would be 59 kgs of pure happyness :)
Also I found out what kind of music inspires me. Last three weeks I have been listening jazz and indie and you know, like, relaxing music. But what I need is: DISCO music. Then I think about dancing and confident girls dacing on the dance floor.
What kind of music inspires you?
