smoke

No long post today, my entire body hurts because of the running yesterday. It was only ten minutes :p

I'm in a neutral mood. When I came from school  my mum was home, so I had to eat lunch with her. It was rice, cucumbers and coffee. For desert there was apples and one chocolate candy, I don't like apples, so I took one bite from the candy, and spitted it out because I realized what I was doing. Yay.

What do you think about smoking? Do you smoke? Love it/Hate it?

Coffee

Just arrived from school.

Made a coffee.

Ate few bites of carrot, it tasted weird and looked green so I throwed it away.

Discovered an egg white from the fridge. Ate few bites of that, until I found a little blood piece from it. Eww, how disgusting is that?!

The coffee was great.

School school school. The preliminary tests are coming. I'm pretty nervous about them.

Oh, I ran 2.1 kilometers (about 1.3 miles) today. 

My back is hurting so bad, last night I couldn't even sleep because of that.

I try so hard to not eat all the chocolate from the kitchen. I have to stay here, in my room, and not even think about the chocolate, cookies, candy and biscuit cake what are downstairs, waiting for me, so they could make me fatter. 

And... 

one picture of me, what I took about half minute ago.

Weird

Hi-hi!

My life has been crazy - in a good way.

First weeks in a new school, new people, my dancing classes, boyfriends... but last weekend everything just... I don't know what happened. I would say - usually I'm smiling, enthisiastic, jovial; I love to be like this. Even if I don't have a reason to be happy. I just think: I don't have a reason to be unhappy either. 

But, yeah, last weekend. Remember my maybe-boyfriend? Well he become my really-boyfriend. And I broke up with him. I'm not sad or anything. It's little bit selfish to say, but I felt myself smarter than him (even when he's four years older than me), and it wasn't interesting to talk with him. So, that was Friday. 

On Saturday, I went out with one guy who likes me (I liked him too...until I saw his friend). So I couldn't stand him at all. Damn, when I write it down, I sound like some girl who can't be without guys attention. But I'm not that kind of girl, it only looks like this (well that sounded unconvincing :D). Whatever. But the evening was very boring. That was weird. It made me sad, because I need interesting and crazy Saturday nights, otherwise school/routine would kill me.

And yesterday I did nothing. I was in my bed almost all day long, watching pictures of Leighton Meester, and a movie "Coyote Ugly". And ate a cake what I made (for 10th day in 10th month in a 2010th year). 

I know this.. thing.. I don't know how to say it.. mess, confusion or whatever won't last forever. 

There is a most important week coming in school - there are all these tests coming, I have to work so hard.

I think I will write more about my personal life than weight. I hope you are not dissapointed.